Psalm 46:1-3
1 God is our refuge and strength,
an ever-present help in trouble.
2 Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way
and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,
3 though its waters roar and foam
and the mountains quake with their surging.
Why do I forgot God, why do I try to do it without him when I know it's so much more peaceful and joyful with HIM!!!
The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him. Psalm 28:7
God's word is good food for the soul. I want to believe that I deserve a break, I deserve someone to come help me, I deserve a chance to have time to myself. Satan wants me to believe that because I do x,y,z; I am a good person and do not need God but this List goes on and on, my wants and desires. Truth be told, it wouldn't matter how much help I would receive, how many breaks I would get, or even if I by chance got time away; I would still be broken and in great need of my Lord and Savior! I need you Lord, oh how I need you. The words to this song, I desperately needed today. I love my children, I love my husband, I love my life; however, I can't do this wife and mother thing alone. I'm not enough and I fall apart without Him. I need The Lord and so does my family.
Lord, I come, I confess
Bowing here I find my rest
Without You I fall apart
You're the One that guides my heart
Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You
Where sin runs deep Your grace is more
Where grace is found is where You are
And where You are, Lord, I am free
Holiness is Christ in me
Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You
Teach my song to rise to You
When temptation comes my way
And when I cannot stand I'll fall on You
Jesus, You're my hope and stay
Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You
You're my one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You
I've been learning of grace in a women's bible study I am currently in and boy do I need to give myself grace. Yes, I am nothing without God, yes I fail my children and my spouse. I even fail myself. But that doesn't matter,no none of it does. What matters is Jesus! Jesus died for my sins. The sins I committed as a child, the ones I committed yesterday, and the ones I committed today. Here right now, The Lord is holding me and whispering in my ear, "I love you." I am not the perfect mother or spouse but I can be my best and Jesus will take care of the rest. I need to allow myself grace and do the best I can with Christ's strength!
Thank you Lord for giving me a few moments to spend time with you regardless of the screaming children all around me. Thank you for the four blessings you have given me. I give them to you, they are your children. Please grant me wisdom to show your love and grace to them. Thank you for the wonderful husband you have given me. Thank you for rescuing me. Thank you for redeeming me. Thank you loving me and giving me grace. In Christ's name. Amen.
